the crime comes last of all

an exercise in blurring the truth.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

whatcha been doing? haven't seen you round.

You're glad he feels clever. Everybody needs a little boost, every now and then. It's important for people to feel clever and loved in their own small niches, in their own little ways. You have your art, he has his art, she has her art, and between the three none is particularly adept when compared to others who practice the same craft. But they feel different, unique, because in their insulated circle they are the best at something. Best at being inoffensive, best at singing, best at painting.

Everybody needs a release, you understand that better than most, but there's private release and there's the kind that wants to be found. You have no sympathy for children like that. For obvious baiting, clear attempts to tease a desired response. If she wants to know she's pretty, she should do something beautiful instead of talking about how unworthy she is.

When you speak in tongues, it hinges on the assumption that the listeners' knowledge is limited to what you're sure they know. They have no other experience with the situation, no hidden theories or insights that might be nourished by your semi-abstractions. Poor grammar is not the same as a riddle, nor is a riddle a good excuse for it.

He's tearing the veil. Your abstractions are rapidly cementing themselves into rebuttals.


Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend

Monday, November 28, 2005

but i only have eyes for you

Really. We'd hoped you were past all this. But she has pretty hair and. . .beautiful eyes. And here you are wanting to stay close to her the rest of the evening, and touch her knee and all manner of impropriety.

"Don't walk away from me, bitch! You don't just wake up and stop loving somebody."


Flamingos - I Only Have Eyes For You
(and that other thing)

Monday, November 21, 2005

Nobody can change the way one feels or the way one thinks. But you would appreciate it if you knew how you could change yourself, so as not to make people insane with suppressed, protracted, passive-aggressive rage.

Monday, November 14, 2005

what've i got to do to make you see

"I am a debator. I will systematically destroy the faulty logic of your arguments."

Well, no you won't. You'll shout and throw backhanded insults and employ a particular brand of widely-accepted circular logic, until the opponent gives up or everybody else in the room is convinced of your rightness.

Clearly, you were not born with the cool, logic-based train of thought you claim to have, nor do you possess it now, because if you did you wouldn't be getting so upset at my supposed illogicisms. Purely logical thinking has a kind of existential calm that prevents it from imposing itself on disinterested parties.

Goddammit.


Busted - She Wants to Be Me